This week I made a crazy realization and burst into song… “OHH! We’re halfway there, OHHH living on a prayer!”
Can we all just freak out for one sec? How have I already been here for 9 months?? That should be way exciting to me, right? Well it actually SCARES THE HECK OUT OF ME. Don’t get me wrong, I love you family and I can’t WAIT to see you all in 9 months time. It just seems to me that not very much has happened to have half my mission behind me. Can that really be possible? This is still basically my first area. I’ve really only gotten to know and love the people here… but oh HOW I love them. I think these questions are natural to ask yourself when you hit that halfway mark, no? Am I doing enough? Am I the missionary I thought I would be at this point? Am I REALLY helping these people? #ahchichin (Kechua for “what the flip, that’s scary!”)
I really hope I am. But if I’ve learned anything in the past 9 months, it’s that we can ALWAYS be better.
In “Becoming a Consecrated Missionary” by Tad R. Callister (which I do and at the same time DO NOT recommend to missionaries halfway through their missions), it says:
“What is a consecrated missionary? It is a missionary who is willing to lay everything on the altar of sacrifice and to hold nothing back. It is a willingness to give every ounce of energy, every conscious thought, and every drop of passion to this work—to submit our will to God’s will whatever it may be. Every missionary who has been to the temple has covenanted to consecrate his all. The book of Omni records the depth and breadth of that covenant: ‘Yea, come unto me, and offer your whole souls as an offering unto him.’ (Omni 1:26)
The law of consecration is the law of the temple, it is the law of the celestial kingdom, and it is the law of a celestial mission.”
The whole talk is SUPER powerful but this part struck me specifically. Have I given every ounce of energy? Conscious thought? Drop of passion? EVERYTHING to submit myself to the Lord’s will? Have I fulfilled my temple and mission call covenants with exactness? I hope so. I just know that I can always be better… and I’m going to be.
I really just adore Hermana Johnson. We have been working our tails off and even though we haven’t had TONS of success, she is so crazy positive. It’s amazing. Every time an appointment falls through, she asks, “Who is it that the Lord would rather us find right now?” Multiple times this week she has asked that question and because of her faith and dedication, we have found who or what the will of the Lord was. I just LOVE her and her incredible greeny energy. She inspires me every day to be BETTER!
This weekend was especially inspiring because of the AWESOME LDS Women’s Conference. Those talks might be a little cheesy but they really are INSPIRING! Also, this week was our Airport Ward Conference! For the first time in my whole mission, the chapel was FULL. So full, they had to open up the back. WHAT?! There were flowers, chocolates, and MUSIC WITH PIANO! The messages were beautiful and inspired. But the most amazing part for me was getting to see Carlitos pass the sacrament, and Hermana Daniel (Papa Infante) and the mighty Mario bless the sacrament and later receive the Melchizedek Priesthood. They just glowed. I love this ward. I love these people… there is no place I would rather be in the world! Obviously the Lord still needs me to be here, so I’m gonna give it all I’ve got and BE BETTER! I know I can do it. We live to be perfected in Him. Moroni 10:32-33.
I just pray that for the rest of my mission and for the rest of my life, I can just keep getting BETTER and becoming more and more perfect in Him.
#BecauseHeLives [watch He Lives here]
PS: Pics from ward activity of Lehi’s dream! Everyone go read 1 Nephi 8 and 11. :) The fruit desirable above all other is DEF chocolate chip cookies.